I Wanna Be A Pensil But I Can't....

Its true...
I really wanna be a pencil....
but i can't...
because im pen...
black pen, not blue pen not red pen but black pen...
why i wrote this??
because i read this status at my beloved blogger FB....

[ Picture: I really hope that im pencil so that i can edit what im write ]

"If we can't be a pencil to write the happiness of other, we still can be a eraser to erase all their sadness. Not be a pencil to write the sadness and be a eraser to erase their happiness.
It cursed"

what the owner write was true.....
if we can't make people happy, we still can erase their sadness....
listen to their problem and give them advise or support....
and that can make them happy...

"Yup. Sometimes our intentions are good, but unfortunately we are quite good too cause everything is destroyed."

unfortunately, sometime we are too over with that...
we always want make other people happy but we fail....
and make that people hate us more that before....
this statement are matching with me....
why.....
because im pen, black pen....
not blue pen, not red pen, not colourful pen....
but a black pen....

i always make people suffering...
always make people sadness...
always make people hate me....
without i realize....
but when i see through their eye...
i realize that im just a burden for them....
just make them feel 

"argh, this kid make the problem more difficult....why HIS here??!!!"

i just a black pen.....
not a blue pen, not a red pen and not a colourful pen....
but im just a black pen....
even u say that i can be a liquid to erase what have i done....
it useless.....
because that means im just act to be a good man in fantasy...
not a good man in reality....
plus when we use the liquid to erase it...
the writing still can be read...
and that means im lie with my self....
im just a black pen...


P/S: Kak Zara, I wanna say very2 thank you to u for all this because always hear and read what im say to u. U r GTZ....and im very2 sorry if this entry make u mad with me....